When one door closes…

Me on my First Day At MAC

Hello Guys and Dolls! I debated back and forth if I should say anything about this, since I where I work is my own personal business, but it’s not exactly a secret either. I work for MAC Cosmetics. Cat’s outta the bag! I’ve worked at MAC for about a year and a half now. I started at a counter, and I’ve worked at the store of my heart’s desire for almost a year now.  I have the best co-workers, many of whom inspired me to work for MAC; I work at a great location, and have amazing regular customers. Incredible opportunities have come my way while working for this brand, and I’ve grown as an Artist and as a person. I’ve met a lot of YOU while working there and I kid you not, 99.99 % of the people I’ve met have made my day- I’m just as excited to see you as you are to see me!  I love my job, and as most people who work for MAC will tell you, MAC becomes such an important part of your life. At this point I know it may seem like I’m bragging, but I’m not:

Saturday is my last day as a permanent MAC Artist.

Many of you will wonder why I would quit a job I love so much, and it’s both simple and so, so complex.

Before I was a MAC Artist I was a YouTuber. I genuinely love showing & teaching (a phrase I picked up working at MAC) and on YouTube I get to do that on a grand-scale. My tutorials are viewed all over the world, and help everyday people improve their makeup skills, provide entertainment, and sometimes, boost their self-esteem. Many people write to me and say how I’ve inspired them and it touches me to know that my videos have that affect. I simply don’t have the words to describe how much I love being a YouTube Beauty “Guru” Goober.

Many of you already know this, but for those who don’t, YouTube takes a lot of time, dedication & hard work. I’m not complaining, I’m just telling it like it is. I hate that week after week I have so many amazing video ideas, but most often I’m lucky if I get one video out a week. I really want to be more consistent, but I suffer from a lack of time. We all get the same 24 hours. Sure, I could half-ass it and churn out more videos, but I’m a Virgo, so I am a firm believer in doing something right, or not at all.

Doing YouTube and being able to touch the lives of so many people is a once in a  lifetime thing, and I want to dedicate myself to YouTube & Blogging as much as I possibly can.  In addition to working at MAC and making YouTube videos I also do freelance jobs as a makeup artist. While I’m perfectly happy to be a Jill-of-all-trades, I made a pact with myself  that I was going to find a better work-life balance, and in order to do that, I have to  cut back somewhere.

I gave my notice at MAC nearly 3 weeks ago, and for the last 3 weeks (maybe a bit before) my mind has been a bit cloudy. It’s not because I’ve been second-guessing myself; I debated leaving for a while, and I tried to make it work, but finally I realized it was the right thing to do. This being my last week, I’ve been in this funk, and I was literally unable to film, because I was just too distracted. Afterall, my decision to leave MAC seems crazy after I just gushed about it. I wanted to work for MAC pretty much since I fell in love with the brand (and makeup) in 2005. The best analogy I can think of is this: It’s like breaking up with someone you’re in love with because you want different things. I still love my job, but the timing is not right. I could see myself coming back to it later on, but I’ve got these other things that I feel I need to explore. Thankfully MAC has a freelancing program, so I’ll still be able to work there from time to time (it’s like being on-call, they call you when they have extra hours/need a shift filled).

If you read this whole Novella you’re a saint. This is so much to think though and I’ve been rehashing it with friends & family who “get it” but really you’re who I’ve had in mind. I care deeply about being the best YouTuber and blogger that I can be, and I feel I’m making the a move in the right direction.

Here’s to a great 2012!

Until Next time,


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